Getting Back Home
After eleven years with my bank, I finally did it. No, I didn't park in my manager's reserved spot because he's on vacation; nor did I figure out a way to get up on the roof so I could stand on the helicopter pad. Sadly, these are dreams that will never be realized because today I wrote my letter of resignation.
In a little over a month, my title will change to Stay-At-Home-Mom. It gives me heartburn just to think about it. On the way to work the other day, I suffered a panic attack when my brain discovered that fact that I will no longer be able to apply for credit solely in my name. I love my husband, but the thought of relying on him so completely makes me a little ill. It's not that I don't trust him. It's just that I have a lot of pride and trying to swallow it is affecting my gag reflex. (Also, is he going to expect me to start cooking?)
I don't want to hear 'you're doing the right thing', or 'this will be so good for the kids', or especially 'a mother's place is in the home'. I've been working all of their lives and they're just fine...or at least not any more screwed up than average. In fact, if it weren't for a series of unfortunate daycare changes, I would be plugging along in my oblivious work-a-day bliss. I'm not even sure my being at home will be that great for the kids. I'm giving us a week before they start browsing the classifieds for me.
I hope this doesn't come off wrong. I completely respect mothers that stay at home. So much so, that the thought scares me to death. What if the kids and I realize that we have nothing in common, that we just don't like each other?
Well, we'll see. Fingers-crossed, and all that jazz. For now, I'll just shut my office door so no one can see me tear up when I proofread my letter...for the twenty-seventh time.
Just like anything, you'll have good days and bad days! I'll be thinking of you as you make this difficult transition.
It's the right thing to do. It's best for the kids. Your place is in the kitchen--I mean home. Why did you proofread your letter? I'm pretty sure they can't make you stay even if you have some spelling errors.
Megan, keep a smile on your face. You and the kiddos will be just fine.
Oh how I can relate to so many of the concerns you have. I've been there. And after nearly 5 years of being a Stay-at-Home mom I can tell you... you'll survive. Like Gretchen said, there are good days and there are bad days, but you'll survive -- you all will. Thinking of you!! Loves.
Ahhhh, lets all hear it for Megan. No more rush hour, no more microwave burritos for lunch, no more butt-kissing.... Hey, do you need a sitter?
Your post brings back so many memories for me. I worked at my job for 8 years before I quit to stay home with my kids. Do I enjoy it? Sometimes, but I hate relying on my husband to pay all the bills as well, so as soon as my youngest is a little older, I am going to find me a job at night so I don't have to pay a sitter. Good luck! It is a huge transition, but you can do it!
You know what megan, you're doing the right thing. I think this is what's best for the kids, after all the mothers' place is in the home. THis is a really good thing for dan too. NOw he can have a warm dinner to come home to every night. This is what's best for dan and the kids...ha dang im funny. love ya sis.
Hey Meg, You know I'll help you whenever you need it. A day off, a day alone, whatever. Love you my girl.
What kind of credit are you planning on applying for? Put your phone or utilities in your name and you'll be fine!